ONLY YOU.

Monday, March 8, 2010 8:26 PM
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i am in major pain right now. my stomach hurts like shit.
my heart's bleeding knee-deep.
i dont know why either.
ooh today work was freaking easy.
oh and stop lecturing me. i dont want to hear another word.
i know what im doing, so could you just leave me alone?
im so tired of lying, of putting on a fake smile for everyone.
sometimes i just want to scream and cry my heart out.
but i cant.
so i hold it in, until at night when i cry myself to sleep.
i tried writing a fan fic, but realised it was too similar to my life.
i don't understand anything anymore.
everythings just a lie, nothing more.
sometimes i just wish i didnt know.
but i do. and there's nothing i can do about that.
i can see right through your lies.
give up the pretense already.
my face is getting tired from smiling.
i just want to cry, is that so wrong?
obviously it is, thats why i cant do it right?
gosh, someone just kill me before i do it myself.
i thought we were friends.
guess i was mistaken.
dont know whats happening anymore.
but i guess that's just me right? the girl who never knew anything while people talked behind her back.
its time i flew away from this earth before insanity hits me.
there's nothing left but emptiness.
tears flow freely down her cheeks, sobs are choked, she makes no sound.