sometimes i just really want to cry

and fling myself out the window.

or scream at you to fucking notice me.

because it hurts like shit

to see you talk to her

and just brush past me as if im not even there.

and it hurts.

and i cry

ive cried so many times over you

not that you would ever know

because you dont talk to me at all.

i wish you would just notice me

and say hi.

but you dont

and thats life.

i find myself staring at the com screen

day by day

just waiting for you to come online

and when you do

i dont even have the courage to click your name and talk to you

so all i do is hope

and obviously hoping does nothing.

and then slowly

i find myself making random excuses to talk to you

but youre never online to talk to in the first place.

i dont know why.

im hoping if i get into Cube or SM

then maybe i'll forget you

not that i want to.

because i think about you everyday.

every. single. fucking. day.

and it sucks.

because i want to concentrate on other things.

but the whole day

my head is just filled with you and nothing else.

i dont even think you're reading this.

so what's the point?

i just needed to get this off my chest

because nobody knows.

nobody knows that im actually in this amount of pain

everytime i think of you.

so someone

anyone

if youre reading this

help me.